…I found something worth living for. Even if the chances for my wish to come true are small, it’s worth fighting for. And after all, at the end of the struggle, even if the wish won’t come true, the things that I’ll achieve will help me a lot.
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In other order of news, I was really busy the last week, so I didn’t have time to post anything although I have some ideas. Probably I won’t have to much time next week either, and on top of that i caught a cold that makes me work two times slower than I usually do. Bleah!

E frustrant sa nu gasesti ceva despre care sa scrii. Ma simt plafonat si am impresia ca toti care ne-am format blogul in jurul thelephants.net trecem printr-o pasa din asta. Ucshi scrie posturi monosilabice, Vladut are aceleasi posturi ce se vor ironice, dar care nu mai au farmecul de acum 2 saptamani, iar blanche e plecata in tari straine. Parca asa a inceput sa se degradeze si forumul 8-|
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Lately, I feel more and more often empty inside, especially when it’s sunny. I used to love this weather, but now I hurry to pull the curtains when the first rays of the sun enter the room. Same goes with some songs(which I can’t listen at all), but there I can tell why it happens…
It’s 2 o’clock and I should go to sleep, but this insomnia, which have haunted me for two months already, keeps me awake, and the last thing I need in this moments is to be lucid.
Don’t forget, Floyd! The trick is to keep breathing…

I think I owe someone apologies for what i said last night… I don’t know what happens with me sometimes, and why I do those scenes only to the people I care about(I did it to Mel and to sis too). I guess sometimes my ego goes nuts and I forget about everyone else, except me. So, I understand if you’ll try to avoid me, or not consider me a friend anymore, because i deserve this.

I know saying I’m sorry won’t solve anything now

I have been really nervous(i rarely get so annoyed without a strong reason) the last days, and i couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me, till last night(i guess all my great thoughts in my life were conceived before or during my sleep). I stood in my bed with my eyes opened for half an hour and i remembered a lot of things, from different stages of my life, that helped me understand what was going on. It was quite a revelation, i could say.

I can’t say too much about it here, the only thing i can tell is that i have to talk to someone this week…

Mood:

Aproape ca uitasem de el. Nu m-am simtit prea bine azi, poate o sa vorbesc despre asta in postul urmator…

P.S. Daca v-a placut(ma gandesc ca nu e stilul lui blanche ) cautati pe youtube si Fred Astaire & Gene Kelly: The Babbitt and the Bromide

I don’t really like Bucharest, most of the time. Probably because i have a phobia of large and overpopulated cities with modern buildings and slow traffic . But today, something was different, for the first time, after quite a long period, i felt comfortable and relaxed. Somehow it reminded me of Crash and of Graham’s words and(as weird as it would sound) it had a pleasant effect on me.

Oh well, the weather had a pretty important role, i guess(i like the sunny springs, it calms me).

Mood:

I guess loneliness scares me a lot more than death(as a matter of fact I can’t remember if i was ever scared of death. I always considered it something painless). It’s hard to stop thinking at the person that stood near you for 7 months and not regret that you didn’t change some things when you were supposed to. But sometimes you just have to move forward and hope that things will get better.

Well, at least i gained a valuable friend that understands me.

I remembered why I stopped caring so much for math contests…

I didn’t have too much time this week, and probably the next week will be as busy as this one, so I won’t be able to update this blog too often…

Global warming my ass! XD